Just Let Me

Let me be who i WANT to be. Let me HURT myself, let me FEEL that negative, angry, SAD and lonely energy. I'm sick AND tired of having to be happy, to BE lovely, to be sweet ALL the time. I'm NOT tht person. 

I want to smash, break and burn things. I want to cry, i want to scream and shout. I want to jump off a cliff, a building. I want to leave. I am so sad that everytime somebody asks me if i'm alright, i just want to say no and cry and fall to the ground but can i? I can't. I don't know whats stopping me. I wish that everything could just fall in place and you know, be okay again... This is really sad and i wanna go kill myself later today so WISH me luck. thanks and bye....